Sunday 10 November 2013

Thursday 7 November 2013

RECENT: photography - "memento mori"

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"Memento mori"
I concentrated on a project for 6 weeks, a fashion brief, looking at "memento mori" and vanity. I did a lot of research and planning, at first it did not exactly go to plan due to some unorganised areas of the whole development, and tbh that threw me off slightly. After that, I planned much more and I worked with an amazing team from my university. 
MUA: Alice Wibberley 
Stylist: Aaron Colley 
Model: Francesca Yates. 
My make up artist did a fantastic job, I have worked with her in the past, at first she was not available which was upsetting, but after after my first shoot, she was on board, and i produced some great shots. My stylist on a costume making course, was absolutely fantastic, we went to the high street and went into topshop, h&m, new look and primark, looked at what was in, and what worked as a whole, well tbh, I left him to that, I was just paying tbh lol. I ordered the skull from Amazon, great little thing for a tenner, now it's an ornament under my bed, as I'm not a fan of staring at such raw material. I street cast my model, I do have a little bit of too much confidence and approach people a lot, so that was not an issue. Took direction well and we got the shots in the end. I would love to have uploaded the test shots, but they truly are scary, and I could not bear to look at them lol. These are only 3 images, that are my favourite of the 8 images. 

.SUCCESS.




whose crying for me?

Recently, I have been so busy with everything, (no excuse) and did not really give that much time to my maker.

Today I felt so uncomfortable and so restless. I picked up my bible and fell into the book of John, I read about what christ said would happen to him, before he would return to his father and the receiving of the holy spirit. So I read from chapter 11-16.
I then wanted bait more in-depth of what I read so I switched it up to Matthew 27-28, I realised that, wow this man literally died for the world, and it was literally FOR THE WHOLE WORLD.

I know that if Satan had knew the benefit of christ's death for us ( sinners/ gentiles) he would not have released the thought of betrayal into Judas' heart. For it would benefit him, to have us all in darkness. As I was in thought, I cried. I find these days when I do put my mind to the word and get into it, I weep for a few minutes. Sometimes I try hold back, but I weep either way. I used to think "Why am I crying?" I can read a happy Psalm and I would just cry! But the spirit that has now come to dwell in me is manifesting and cries and groans for me, to my saviour the king.
I am not ashamed to call my God my king, for christ is not ashamed of those who love him to call him their God. Those who love him, follow his commands, to love all those around them, and to help those in need.

I'm happy to cry once in a while when I read, intact, always!

Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. 

Thursday 24 October 2013

Christian: Let's stop and THINK.

"I love to get drunk and party, here and there get high! Oh, by the way I also hit bible study on a Friday."

Yeah. Us christians (I've been here too) we love to balance being in the world with being that righteous person of God.

I cannot begin to say how I used to throw around the sentence, "I am a christian and I love God. I don't believe in a smoking." However I would be drinking, getting comfortable with guys and going out? was that okay? NO!
Yes christ has given us freedom but I think sometimes we either get confused with what freedom that is, or we make us what is sinful and what isn't.

I properly started to turn to God around the end of summer. I felt so lost. I was confused, because I made up all the rules on what was acceptable and what was sinful. I couldn't call myself a christian because I wasn't exactly being one.

Christianity is not a religion, but it is a way of life. TBH it's what I've been looking for.
Not having a boyfriend, a social life that means going out and vomiting everywhere in the name of fun, "smoking the herb" doesn't bother me.
I'm content with my soya milk in my cup of tea ( okay, that is apart of a diet plan that i DON'T enjoy, boy do I miss my british whole milk, you know the one with the blue cap...green if you're pushing it) and my lovely peaceful life that i have just began to have.
I'm not the perfect christian, oh no way! But I'm made perfect with christ when i CONFESSED my sins and said NO MORE.

There is no point of going clubbing then church on a sunday, logic? I find with christianity people love how "free" it is. God gives us a choice, but you're really not wasting God's time when you balance sin with church going. I would go out with friends, be in a sinful environment where ungodly spirits are field, then go to church on a sunday and pray for guidance for academic work. God couldn't help me because I was still holding on to what was blocking me from my blessings. I feel I have less friends suddenly because I realised the friends are partied with were just friends are partied with. Immediately I stopped I became "that girl I used to party hard with till the jesus thing got serious". Well bravo me! I'm glad it's that way.

My friends always ask "What happened to the guy you were seeing?" I shrug it off with "oh you know it wasn't working, not for me" truth is, that's a distraction and me not being patient with growing up. Let God give me a man, in the meantime, no, i won't entertain other company.

he said "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.(issiah 55:8)

So may God's ways and plans for our lives come into full swing. May we not just go to church and pray and be done for the week, let us pray every moment we can, not just for ourselves but for everyone around us, and those that come into our mind. Let's remind ourselves of what Jesus died for, what God gave us. Let's change things.

I've started to change things. But there's a long way to go, and for once, I'm not walking alone confused.
There's a greater one beside me. He's also beside you.

think about:
"For what shall it profit a man, if he gain the whole world, and suffer the loss of his soul?" (mark 8:36)